Well… the title seems very ambiguous of course. So, let me make it clearer for all of tou reading this (of there is any… i hope. Hehehe). This feeling i’m talking about is HATRED. Yes, my frens. You read it right. And it’s directed towards someone i have respected since i knew him in CC. Not anymore now…
Well, i don’t want to make any enemies ‘cos this could be only my own feeling towards them so i won’t give you a name. All clue you can get is that he is in the same year with me in CC. Why I hate them you asked? It’s because he has turned arrogant. Too arrogant for me to tolerate. I never expected him to be like that. Not in my entire life…
Abhy, Reza, i’ve talked to both of you about this. So please don’t talk anything about this. Let’s just try our hardest. And anyone who could guess who this person is, please don’t blurt it out. Ok?

Anyway…. Today, i felt a great tug in my heart. It’s about the courses i will take in Univ. I’m really considering taking Psychology now. Why? Because i just realize that i’m THAT careless in calculations. What if i get into biotech or any other engineering courses, make an atomic bom or biological bom, missed a calculation, and blow up the whole world or poisoning people? Shame on me…
I guess i’ll just throw away my pencil case. All of you who has seen my pencil case will know why. It really brings bad luck, you know…
But, oh well, as is I sometimes do, i’m still going to try going to biotech. IF and ONLY IF no univ in this world will take me to study biotech, THEN i’ll take psychology.

I think that’s all i wanted to say today.

-Step by Step-
When my existence seems to disappear
I will look for the place where I can do the best I can
From now on, I’ll deliberat slowly
I won’t be impatient
I won’t be greedy
I won’t give up
Because everyone take things step by step
–> Quoted from "One Litre of Tears" movie

The mid semester test is entering the 6th day already. Subject : biology. Man!!! I gotta work extra really very merry gerry nerry lerry cherry berry blueberry raspberry strawberry blackberry (beri-beri?) hard. For i have to make up for my not-so-good mark in other biology tests.

And… i think my suffering will be over soon. As soon as the gun is shot, the pain will come, and after that, everything will be over. No more painand suffering from waiting and worrying too long. Haha. Although… i’m not sure whether i’ll ever be sane enough after that. Wekekekeke. Just kidding. I’ll surely overcome it.

-The Other Side of Suffering-
Everyone feels pain
But surely, after suffering satisfaction will arrive
Even with sports, studying, or other ordeals
With life, it’s like that for everyone
If we can beat the pain, on the other sido
a rainbow of happiness awaits us
That will definitely become a treasure
Lets believe in that
–>Quoted from "One Litre of Tears"

The fourth day of mid semester exam is coming in. Man.. i feel sooooo tired even though i’ve got two days of holiday already… Coz two candles died out in those two days. And there’s nothing in this world that can force them to light up again…

Yes people!!! TOEFL on the 6th and SAT on the 14th. Isn’t that great? It’s beginning to kill me…

"Who are you to tell me those things?"
"Who are you to ask me those things?"

HHHHH!!!! Baru hari kedua ulangan Blok aja udah segini parah… Meskipun ulangannya bisa dikerjain, tapi rasanya udah cape… banget. tapi tetep gak boleh patah semangat. Biar gak kalah taruhan!!!! Smangat!!!!! OUKEH!!!!

WARNING!! System meltdown in 5… 4… 3… 2… 1… Bzzzztttt…. Puff!!! Sssshhhh……

Gila… Gila… Smuanya gila… Hahahaha!!! Matilah Rancob!!!!! Tendang Rancob!!!! BUNUH!!!!

So…. No prizes gotten…. Oh well…. I’ve been through a lot these two days…. Well, too bad she didn’t got any too. if only she had gotten at least one, i would have been more tempted to work harder. At least today’s not a really bad day. Actually, not bad at all. Haha…

Weleh… nih blog gw tulis jem 1 pagi man!!!! Saking gak ada kerjaannya. Hehehe. gw baru ngabisin nonton 11 episode ‘1 Litre of Tears’. Mengharukan banget tamatnya. Bisa bikin banjir satu kota jakarta tuh klo ditonton. Haha.

Asik2 milis csc rame lagi gara2 perdebatan sense-anti sense dan kodon2 gila itu. Hahaha. I’ll let the experts talk about it, sit back, relax, and enjoy the show. Haha. Just kidding. I’ll also try to find some information of course.

Well, it’s entering the second day of CC Edu Fair. I’ll be makin’ muh’ decision t’morrow. So, no more doubtin’ eh? Wish ye’ all could make yer’ own decision already. Haha.

Btw, i am worthy after all. Hahaha. Good luck to you fren. Keep studying hard. I’ll be always waiting for you.

"No matter how little the matter is, i want to become a useful person to others"
-One Litre of Tears-

Yups…. Bert, malem ini lu akan jadi orang yang paling gw "benci". Penyebabnya : gw udah lupa soal lomba ini dan udah gak pduli gw menang ato kalah. Tapi gara-gara lu ngirim pesan ke gw lewat msn itu…. Gw jadi keinget lagi dan jadi deg2an gak karuan lagi…. Sial lu!!!! Malem ini gw ga bakal bisa tidur nyenyak deh mengingat ini masalah taruhan nih. Hiks hiks hiks..

Tapi gapapa. Selamat yah udah jadi finalis. Hehehe. Emang ituh pras udah gak ada matinya yah…. tai banget tuh orang jago abis…. Masih untung dia sendiri gak ikutan. Hehehe. Mo tau salah satu skenario aneh lagi? Sbener yang menang itu gw. tapi justru karena gw menang, gw gak ditelpon supaya gw bisa pulang sebelum pengumuman. Klo lu kan finalis tapi gak menang. Jadi diisengin sama sigit disuruh tunggu sampe pengumuman. HAHAHAHA….

I’ll tell you something!!! Oh yes, i’ll tell you!!! That creature is stinkingly fu***** as*****. An abomination WHICH shouldn’t have been created in this world. IT is one of the reasons i first considered leaving the ring. What right did IT has to judge me?! Oh no… You’re not going to triumph over me. I’ll beat you, buddy. I’ll surely beat you. I’ve poured many gallons of HCl over you some time ago. You’ll never be able to survive long with your big stupid head, i tell you. Y-O-U-A-R-E-D-E-A-D. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!

"If i were a flower, then now i’d be a bud"

Routine update for my blog. Wahahaha.

First of all, i want to wish my fens from XII-F class who are now going for retret. Especially my big best all time fren. Hope you can heal yourself and manage to find the real you in this retret.

And then, i will tell you one of the greatest battle i’ve ever had in my life. Well, it’s not as great as the 1st and 2nd World War, or as great as the atomic bom that destroyed Hiroshima and Nagasaki, or even the Bacta war in Star Wars. But i find it as one of the most important thing in my life.The thing is this : i challenged her to find out who got the higher mark amongst the two of us for the 1st semester. Coz i got really depressed everytime i remembered how smart she is, or how high her achivements are in her school, or how many scholarships she got, or in many things she is better than me.
Today, i submitted my opinion for the opinion competition at CC EduFair. And, MY GOD!!! I just found out yesterday that she is going for the competition too. If i had known that earlier, i would’ve taken the competition as personal and i would’ve focused on my script more.
Yes, i know i sounded a bit arrogant. But i need to find out whether i’m worth to challenge her at first. And by the time i found that she is going for the competition too, i’ ve got no more time to rebuild my script. So, i’ll just hope and pray. I wish her a lot of luck though, for i also don’t want to reak our already close relationship.

Next thing. The CSC is going along quite well. We had our meeting regularly every Friday and the freshmen seems to be happy and content. But i still have some doubt in my decision in taking CSC at my freshman year. I should’ve heard my own heart for passion in basketball. Now i have to pay for my ignorance. Everytime the word ‘basketball’ sounded, my heart jumped.
Aside of that, i will try my best in building this extracurriculer. I’ve made my decision, and i will live by it. Besides, i have many friends that will help me in everytime of despair. Together, we are strong!!!

=Will i? I WILL!!! For i am Will=